I have been ill with "flu" for the last 10 days, but now that my energy is returning I feel a desire to work on the two oil paintings I have started.
I can feel a digital painting brewing as well.
Why do I paint & write?
Am I some sort of exhibitionist pervert leaving it all hang out for leeches to suck on
Or is it a more profound need
To clarify what has arisen in my Mind
I feel Being ness if I do Void ness if I don't
enough a reason for me
History of it
I started painting 25 years ago in order to explore the Unconscious Me
By doing it with out thinking about it in order to let that side of my Mind
Express its Self
BE WARY! Its rather like opening Pandora's Box!
it spilled over into examination of other people & psychic situations
An Artist was Born
I remember a dream I had at that time
I entered a deeply dark & exotic garden
Through a small door & wall going off to either side
There was a small but deep prussian blue pool in the Center
To which I was making my Way
I suddenly became aware of a HUGE SNAKE
That was living There
its funny, my dreams & paintings are really quite up at the moment
yet I myself feel quite depressed
perhaps the unconscious me knows something i don't
i think i'll do a screwed up thoughts of a fuck up